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just when u think your life rythm is settling down to where you want excatly, a wave comes up to ruin all ur dreams and hopes....

in fact, it s stupid to believe in people, coz all you r gonna get is disappoitments....

a dream can last for 1 mn, 1 hour, 1 day or 2, 2 years or 3...but eventually, u have to wake up and face the truth, that it was just a dream, nothing more nothing less...

you shut your eyes and pressure hard, but that wont get u back to the dream, u try to imagine nice ideas hoping the dream will contine from where it stopped

u dont want to let it go, u want to stay there, but .....

u surrender eventually...

u see the black before openning ur eyes, u can never be prepared to reality...

it is always as dark and miserable as it can feel....

and in one millisecond : UR AWAKE ...

here I am again writting in this little corner, my secret little corner where feelings flow with no restrictions... I m bored of restrictions , i m bored of rules and boundaries, Disipline is a must in a human life especially that humans dont know their best interest, they hurt themselves and each others repetitively....but why cannot we just live in peace...today i m a prisonner of my own desk for support, it was a good prison, my only mate was my shadow and i didnt mind it, its been 6 hours now and 2 more and i m done and go back home...i enjoyed the silence and lack of confusions and stress...the lack of rules and Must and must not do...i eat , sleep , dance or sing whenever i want...if Freedom is offered by God, why is it too hard to maintain it? why we lose love in the name of Good and Love?

I give up my freedom of choice to give more value to the one i love

I lose Freedom of talking when talking will lead to troubles

I lose my Freedom to cry coz crying will lead to a sadness for the ones i love

i lose my freedom to jump coz jumping is considered madness in societies

I lose my freedom to be ME in order not to disturb my surroundings.......

Freedom in those simple aspects are lost daily from our life, and we call it Compromises  but is it truly Compromises or an Individual Lost?

 

Another november goes by... i stopped writting dairies...no need,, the days of happinesss cannot be described...only sadness can be interpreted in words,,,

Novembers are coming too fast...just the other day i was november 2007, time is flying away so fast....

just wishing all novembers will be as joyfulll as they can be.....

live, love, smile and let the world be ur room....

After the day reached its end, i m totally exhausted, totally missing my heart,,,that is life...we are tired, i m tired,,we r gonna hve enough strength to build one energy back for another day,,,

 

It is been such a long time i didnt write in here... And tonight is somekind unique since i dont stay much home nowadays, my life is a group of minutes, i have 15 mns to take a bath, 35 mns to arrive home, 5 mns to make a phone call, 10 mns to eat, 15 to take a break...I dont have time where i dont have a single thing to do..I dont mind,, i am enjoying the fullness of my life, the time is running so fast, too fast to end my tasks, too fast to stare at the mirror, too fast for a simple decision...that is ok...

I am trying to distract myself from the main major subject that is running on my head, in fact it is not about the time which is runnng too fast but the mns i am watching passing while my love is far away from me, and for the first time for many days...Now, at this time, the time isnt passing at all, 30 mns to reach his target finnally seem like eternity, time to call him again , to send him another message, to wait for his call,,, time for those days to pass seem like eternal hell...

May God help us all... 

it is a sure thing that we r rewarded one day for being good people in our lifes...

We are nice not becoz we r waiting for something in return but becoz we do enjoy seing a smile on other people's faces..we like to spread happiness among people we cross... and for our surprise, happiness touched us too...the ultimate happiness...Aint we lucky?!

For this! be optimistic..